Saturday, February 19, 2011

Guarded

Our agency case manager and Sweet Pea's CPS caseworker came out for their monthly visit this week.  They just happened to be here at the same time, which seemed like a good thing because I could actually get more information with both of them here.  We had been told from the beginning that there was supposed to be court this month to terminate Sweet Pea's parents' rights.  Now we've found out that's not the case.  Now they say there is a permanancy review hearing next month (just basically a check in with the judge) and court isn't actually until July.  It seems like there's confusion on all sides and that Sweet Pea's case is just getting looked over by CPS.  She's been well cared for since she's been in placement and never has any visitation with family members, so really there's not much that her caseworker has to do for her.  Her caseworker wasn't even at the last court hearing.  She did say that she does have contact with Sweet Pea's biological mother and that she does want her.  That was news to me.  They still insist that there's little chance of mom actually getting her, but just hearing that scared me.  I felt a little wall go up around my heart when I heard those words.  They say the plan for Sweet Pea is still parental termination and unrelated adoption.  We knew getting in to this that there could never be any guarantees, but we were basically told when we accepted Sweet Pea that she would be free for adoption in about a month.  Shannon, always the skeptic (or maybe the realist), thinks they just told us that so we would accept her and they would get to keep her within the agency.  I'd hate to think that's the case.  I like to think of others as basically good and don't like to imagine that our agency is trying to deceive us in some way.

So again, we have to go back to just enjoying our time with us now regardless of what the future holds.  After dinner that night, I was telling Shannon about the what they'd had to say.  I looked over at him holding Sweet Pea and we both had tears in our eyes just imagining have to give her away.

1 comment:

Unknown said...

UGH, what a roller coaster ride you must feel like you are on! Hope that everything goes smoothly and that the agency folks are in fact inherently good instead of duplicitous.