I had my appointment with my regular OB-GYN today to discuss my options for the future, both if I decide to try again or not. If I were to try again, he said he recommends IVF and gave me the name of a fertility doctor he's seen a lot of success with. I thought about it all day and was starting to warm to the idea of seeing this doctor. Then I looked through the folder of information on them and googled them too. Now I'm not so sure. All of their info and reviews just talk about IVF. And honestly, I've never liked the idea of IVF for me. The thought of spending thousands of dollars and investing so much time and energy in the process only to have yet another loss sounds awful to me. I understand there are some pros for me, especially considering my history. IVF would choose the strongest, healthiest embryos and ensure they're implanted in my uterus, eliminating the worry of another ectopic. That's great and all, but I've had babies seemingly implanted correctly only to lose them...
This will sound crazy, but this morning when we discussed my options for not ever getting pregnant again I was more excited about the idea of a hysterectomy than doing IVF. My doctor tried to suggest a tubal ligation at first, but this doesn't sound like what I want. If I'm *never* going to try to get pregnant again, why in the world would I want to continue having periods?? Very painful periods at that. He finally agreed and documented all kinds of symptoms in my chart in case I do decide to go down that road so we can make sure my insurance will cover it.
I still strongly feel that my thyroid is largely to blame for my miscarriages. The more I research about thyroid disorder, the more it just makes sense. And the more it makes me wonder about other things I'm experiencing that could very well be due to my poorly controlled hypothyroidism. I recently found a doctor nearby who specializes in thyroid disorder. Everything I've read on her website makes me feel that she really could help me, whether or not we ever try again. I've already been leaning towards making an appointment with her just to see if it felt right. So now do I still just do that and ignore my regular doctor's advice? Do I meet with the fertility doctor too just to make sure? Why isn't there someone out there who can help me make these difficult decisions??
