I went to a wedding tonight. Shannon had to work, so I went alone. I had friends there, but it's not the same as having your husband there, you know? I missed him terribly while I was there.
This was my first wedding to go to in a while where I wasn't pregnant or freshly grieving a pregnancy loss. That felt good to be able to drink and just let go and have fun. But at the same time, it also made me a little bit sad. Sad for all I've been through. Sad I still have nothing to show for all our pregnancies, no sweet little one to hold. I try to stay focused on a positive future ahead, but sometimes I'm still just a little sad about the past...
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