Sad

Ultrasound did not go well. There was really nothing to see. And there definitely should have been something. They did blood work today and I'll do more Thursday to determine if it's a miscarriage or ectopic. The only thing we could see was a cyst on my ovary, which can be completely normal in pregnancy. So hopefully I'll know something for sure by Friday. Or I'll just have a natural miscarriage in the meantime. If not we'll do another ultrasound next week to decide the best course of action.

Either way, my doctor and nurse were very kind and understanding. I'm thankful for them.

I thought I was prepared for this. But I'm sadder than I thought I'd be. How can I be sad about something I never had?